I’ve said several times in the past posts how tired and ill I’ve been feeling. We’ve got big things happening here chez Cookin. We’re taking this thing to a whole new level of Doing Domestic – that’s right! I’m pregnant with our first child!
After six years of marriage we are delighted to be welcoming a baby! We’ve wanted this for several years now and I thought we’d have this totally under control. But life is funny that way. You don’t really know how big a step it is to start a family until it actually happens! I’ve realized that nothing will ever be the same again, and that’s okay, but I also feel like we need to give ourselves time to let our status quo go. Additionally, as a woman, I don’t think that you can actually be prepared for what happens to you when you become pregnant. That being said, I feel fortunate to have only experienced nausea (sometimes severe and all day long) and fatigue (mostly persistent) so far. Truly, I feel as if my body has been completely taken over, and I’m still here, in my head, but I don’t have control over my body anymore. And sometimes, I am finding more frequently now, I don’t have control over my brain anymore either – think moodswings and memory loss, its like walking around in an aggrevating fog. I haven’t had to miss any time at work, though I wish I could have, and so far I plan to keep working until I just plain can’t anymore.
For the past few years I felt like everyone was having babies, except for us, of course. But now that I am expecting, it seems that everyone really is pregnant or has just had a baby. I’m talking about friends, family, old classmates, co-workers, just surrounded by it, and it’s kind of cool, at least now there’s no more pregnancy jealousy.
**Now that I’m out of my first trimester I am feeling much better, or at least not so sick. I’m still struggling with fatigue, but I believe my line of work is expected to suck the life out of someone who is gestating. My focus and memory has become significantly altered as well. The only way I can try to keep up is by keeping a running list of to-dos and post-it reminders. My boss is less than thrilled with my new sieve for a brain. The physical changes are becoming more apparent and in the next weeks I’ll have to go shopping for stretchier pants (not super thrilled about that) and sleeping is becoming more of a task.
***I actually did my first maternity shopping today. The booby fairy has blessed me out of my undergarments and I needed some new ones. With my mom in tow we picked up what I needed and also found a couple of cute maternity tops and a dress that I can wear at work. The second trimester is when the baby really grows most noticeably. I feel better now that I have a few things specifically for a burgeoning belly thanks to the trip today and from my friend Sonya, who at seven months pregnant is acting as my unofficial sensei.
This baby stuff is exciting for me, I’ll probably keep posting about the progress here from time to time, and I hope you’ll enjoy keeping up. Of course if you don’t you can just skip those posts. What-evs.
In the meantime, at least now you know why I’m not posting too frequently. First, I’m tired constantly. Second, I’m not doing a lot of domestic stuff right now because see First. Third, because of First and Second I’m just trying to get by and keep from drowning under the piles of dirty laundry and dishes. (I’m sure glad I made a huge batch of laudry soap right before getting pregnant). There are big plans though as I mentioned last time, there will be a flurry of fruit picking, gardening and canning all summer long. Also, there will be lots of sewing and preparing for this baby to come, at least after we learn the sex. And there will be plenty of nesting activities that include cleaning and organizing. So don’t worry, I still have some content coming for you.